Onwards and Upwards No. 19
Hello my healing team,
I hope this update finds you well.
As you can imagine, the words “Early Disease Progression” are not the words I wanted to hear today. Disease progression bloody sucks, but for it to be “early”……geeze. What a blow. To keep it context, in October, I had 0.1% cancer cells in my bone marrow, February it was 0.8% and now it is 1.5%. That my friends is disease progression. It doesn’t sound a like a high number and the Nutty Professor says it is following the trend that stats says it will, but as I have iterated in the past, I really don’t like the prognosis associated with those stats. If this trend continues, I will be back in hospital for another stem cell transplant quicker than you can say “rumplestiltskin” ten times. The most distressing aspect of this all is that now I am heading into a space of uncertainty. Control is being taken away again.
So what do I do now???
First, I need to stop and take a deep breath. Then;
- I need to cut out the white noise that invades my thoughts, the same white noise that brings with it anxiety and doubt.
- I need to focus and prioritise what is important. Of course family and wellness comes first. I know what is important as they are imbedded in my goals.
- I need to strive to improve. By following my gut instincts and researching, I can learn and modify what I do with improved learning.
- I need to keep the door open for new people to enter, and with that, I need to be ready to change. Change may bring the cure.
Overall, I just need to continue to be a good person.
Happy Friday.
Take care
Geoff
