Hello My Healing Team,
I hope this update finds you well.
I guess it has been a little while since I last updated you on how I am travelling. I am ok đ. There are good weeks and some that are not so good. Regardless, I get up each morning feeling thankful. I make plans for the day, for weeks, months and years all in the ultimate pursuit of putting a bigger smile on my dial and on the dial of those precious people around me.
As I write, I am sitting in the day oncology ward of the Epworth Freemasons Hospital. There is a few litres of junk draining into me that we hope will keep those nasty cells in check all in the pursuit of a happy long life. I come in here on a fortnightly basis and look forward to this going monthly in late July. Less time spent here the better. I look around me, and all of the 30 odd âbig chairsâ are occupied by people receiving their own cocktail of junk. They too are doing whatâs necessary to keep smiles on their own dials. I do get annoyed because I know what these 30 people are going through. However, I am a little satisfied by the fact that I am likely to be the youngest here, probably by at least ten years. I wonder to myself, given I am much younger than them…… should I invite them to my 80th birthday party?? It would certainly give them something else to live for because itâs going to be huge!!!!
The last 4-5 months have come and gone without too many hiccups. On a good week I toil with golf, on a bad week I engage with Netflix. Recently, there have been more good weeks than bad. Winning. Regardless of the week, I am lifted each day when Riley and Georgia bounce through the door having spent the day at school, and unload their views on the trials and tribulations that they have experienced. It is such a privilege to be able to be home to immerse in their life.
My last last bone marrow biopsy, where we test cancer prevalence, was done in January, and the next will be done in August. I have no knowledge on how my cancer is responding to this treatment other than knowing how I feel at any given moment. I was tempted to get frustrated by this lack of detail, but soon got over it as I figure that my day to day first hand measure of âhow I feelâ was enough.
I think about why I havenât written much, and maybe it is because I donât want to be known as âthe cancer guyâ. I guess I want to be known for the good things that I do or have done, the laughter and the light that I bring. Everyone is befallen by bad things or challenges from time to time. It is important to me that I do not become the bad, but rather fly free and be represented by my strengths, or best traits. I want to be Superman, not Kaptain Kryptonite!! I recognise that I have a big role to play in managing how people perceive me and what lasting impression I leave. It starts with me. Time to be superman!! As a wise man once said âNo one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.â â Buddha
If you want âthe feelsâ this 11 year old kid has nailed exactly what I am talking about!! Watch … https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=BmFukQHrmmk
Take care
Geoff
